Saturday, 24 January 2009

Fear analysis

what does it feel to be without fear?
nowdays i seem to envy people who dont have fear as a regular feature in their lives...and i tend to see freedom as being free from fear too.

i have no idea where and when did i start fearing things, i remember there was a time this word was mysterious to me, i used to think why do people feel afraid. and now i am, at the completely opposite end of the spectrum, wondering how do people go about in their daily lives without fearing something or the other.

to come to very material things, i never had a fear of heights, or darkness, or ghosts, or closed spaces, or crossing roads, or speedy biking...i never felt fear in anything. and in all these years the only thing that has changed drastically in my life is my close encounter with death. i lost my mother, and that i guess really brought upon the realization that death treads softly...and it affects me. i think that is the reason nowdays i am very upset by any attacks, any accidents any murders or such mishappenings.

i dont understand how a human being can be capable to causing so much pain to someone else, and the pain is irreversible. those who are dead cannot come back, the large lacuna can never be filled, there is no way to have any solace except to think of "buts and whys".

i see the current terror scenario and i wonder how can a person do such heinous crimes, are these people who have actually never lost someone near and close or are they such heartless people that they wouldnt feel anything. somehow i want to think it is the second reason...you tend to be insensitive towards something if you are exposed to it for long. when a medical student sees a dead body for a first time, he really hesitates but over a period of time he develops an immunity...a kind of emotional immunity. is it the case with these terrorists, have they actually seen and faced death or is it a first time experience for them?

but i guess life has to move on...and it is not because you are brave or something like that it is beacause after some time instinct takes on...you are routined to do your daily activites from childhood and the response of your emotional side also tends to take on autopilot for emergencies. i think i am in this state now...it will be some time before i begin to think, feel and start to live to myself.

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.
-Ambrose Redmoon

12 comments:

PD said...

what would i say? life never stops.. it should go on every day.. fearing is just a psychological phenomenon.. my exp is just opposite to yours exp.. previously i had lots of fear about death or snakes or heights.. but its gone with......(you well know that whose name is in this blank space).. but still i think that it is a psychological phenomenon..

santoshi said...

the quote of Ambrose Redmoon that u have added to your post is superb. It sums up everything.

दर्पण साह 'दर्शन' said...

The only thing we have to fear is fear it'self - nameless, unreasoning, unjustified, terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.

VisH said...

wahoo it superb post .....keep writting dont stop ur thought...it ur power..!!


Jai HO Mangalmay HO

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Satyavan said...

I liked your thoughts. I am yet to read your blog but I really liked your profile and other stuff. Cong8s!!!

Blandid said...

Hey Puja...Keep writing...:-)

Phenomenal Thinker said...

I think it becomes a way of life- fearing, isn't it, till a time comes when the feeling of fear saturates and that's when we just get used to it and start living with it like it was part of our life. Nice post, never thought about it, I actually have a lot of thoughts about fear! :-)

ravi sharma said...

भय बिन प्रीत न होय..!!!

Blandid said...

I think you are one of bravest person I know. :-D

poemsnpuja said...

thanks molo :)

Sandeep said...

badal jaye agar mali, chaman hota nahi khali
baharein phir bhi aati hain, baharein phir bhi aayengi

by my personal experience, fear erupts out of making connection. When u feel linked, u fear to loose that link. when you love life, u fear loosing it (this explains physical fear). when u love a relationship, u fear loosing it (this explains emotional fears). when u love having financial security, u fear going emty stomatch on roads (this explains financial fear). when u love the state of no-need-to-explain-things-leave-it-to god, u fear loosing that cozy zone and hence attachment to GOD/Religions out of fear.

In a way, fear is the glue which binds using ignorance. Knowledge frees one out of fear but at the same time introduces insecurities, difficulties and wild world (the true one)